My nemesis is an exceptionally clever guy. He knows all the worst things about me that no one else does, and he’s my equal in virtually every area. Today he has been pointing out all of my inadequacies, and it’s really wearing me down.
I have been so blessed in life to be surrounded by some really dynamic and powerful people. I was told by a teacher in college (Roger Grohman) that the person we are tomorrow is basically going to be the same person that we are today. However, the person that we are five years from now is going to be affected most by the books we read and the people we associate with. So, in that way, I’m grateful for all of the amazing people in my life because hopefully five years from now – maybe I’ll be amazing too. :)
The only drawback from all this is that I start looking at all of the ‘giants’ around me and start to feel pretty small and insignificant. Or maybe today it’s just because I’m suffering from loneliness with Wendy being out of town. I believe that God has a calling on my life, and I’m confident in His ability to make things happen, today I’m just battling that guy. He’s can be a real pain in the ass from time to time.
The guy… the one who aggravates me more than any other person I know. It’s me. I’m my worst critic. I’m my harshest judge. I’m the one who belittles my accomplishments and notices every flaw in my hardest work. So, here’s the plan that I’m trying to work on today. It’s a scripture that I’ve only recently applied to myself. Before now, I’ve always used this verse to help me see the best in others, but instead of being my own nemesis, I’m going to become my own fan club.
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
I’m going to go tell the mirror how awesome it is now. Later – jeremy